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Lord help me to learn to spell without spellcheck, manage to visit all that visit me, and post regularly - all in 5 minutes a day, so that I can clean house and take care of my family. Help me to not look at every occurrence in my life as a blog post, and to quit taking pictures of weird things to share as well. Please Lord, help me to stop talking about my blog friends as though they are next door neighbors or someone I have known all of my life. And help me dear Lord, to think of something witty and wise to post tomorrow.


Thursday, March 04, 2010

something that I shared with my PSYCH DOCTOR TODAY!

Ok folks here comes a bombshell. As my last post show I'm having a bad time, especially these past 2 weeks have really been hell for me. This being said I am fighting really deep depression due to the severity of my seizures. I told my doctor that I am glad that I do not own a gun, because I would have used it A TIME LONG AGO. There are days that I fight with these feelings again. I am holding on, I will not act on these feelings. If thing get any worse I will go to the emergency room for further treatment and hospitalization. I am visiting with every one, I am not commenting very much, I just don't have it in me to comment. I am sorry that I do not. Please keep me and Celestine in your prayers that we keep the strength that we need to carry on every day.

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  1. I'm so sorry you are having a tough time. I hope you know what a blessing you are to others, even in the middle of your own trials. I'm praying for you and Celestine.

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  2. I won't try to tell you any of the things that many feel obliged to say. For I have been where you now are. In fact, I still am to a much greater extent than I am comfortable with. So, just know that I feel for you, and we both know the One who feels even more. Be assured that it will be as it should be in the end.

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  3. I'm so sorry, Mike. Dealing with these seizures must be nothing short of hell. No wonder the depression is setting in. Please make sure that you go immediately to the hospital if you ever feel you're unsafe. I'll be saying prayers for you. I wish so much the seizures would stop. I care, my friend.

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  4. ((((MIKE))))

    Blessings,
    Tammy

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  5. MIKE i don't know what to say... rest assured that you and Celestine are in my prayers. please get well soon. my hat's off to your strong spirit...

    i suddenly remembered something... i was in severe depression (and deep emotional pain) a few years ago. a "voice" within was telling me that my life was worthless already and i was close to believing it. i wanted to fight it but it just got stronger as i resisted.

    then one day, after praying, an idea struck me. i read The Psalms out loud to counter the "voice" or the pain i was feeling. i fought it through PRAISING, Mike. that "voice" was beaten, the pain subsided.

    at this point in time, when nothing works for you, maybe this idea will help. it did for me. it also changed my life.

    GOD BLESS YOU AND CELESTINE...

    p.s. on the left sidebar of my "OF LIVING..." blog, there is a powerful prayer there. that was Jesus' prayer in Gethsemane. that prayer has become my mantra and it is so easy to remember. it killed my panic attacks (PTSD), Mike... without a single prescription medicine (i refused to take them). please give it a try. please... please... please...

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  6. You and your lovely wife are always in my prayers Mike. I've never suffered from depression or seizures, so I don't know what you are going through, but I certainly feel for you.

    Big hugs to you both. :)

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  7. I'm so sorry! Sending you my prayers and well wishes.

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  8. Mari,Stephany,Travis,FishHawk,Thank you all.
    Bing,Thank you as wll. Sandee,Take the worse hangover that you ever had and multiply it by 200,than you get a glimse into my world.

    Cinamon-Girl,thank you.

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  9. Late in seeing this, but thinking about you brought me here. Take care, look after yourselves, both of you.

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  10. Hey my friend, sorry, I'm so behind on reading and commenting. First of all you are always in my prayers whether you hear from me or know. You are one of my first blogging buddies. So sorry you are going through all this. HEY, I just notice your class of '71' picture on the side bar. I'm class of '71' as well. YEAAA US!!!

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  11. I'm sorry Mike. Remember that nothing can be so bad that it requires death. Keep up hope and keep on trudging. This too shall pass.

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  12. JC,Thank you so much.

    Syd,you are right.I'm just trying to get through this.I had to be honest with my doctor and my Wife.I share this here as well.It is a struggle for me,but with the love and support of Celestine and my friends I will get throught this.

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