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BORN HERE RAISED HERE AND MOST LIKELY WILL PASS AWAY AND BE BURIED HERE AS WELL.

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This is a Tip of The Hat to Sandee, my Co-Author and blog wizard.

I've been in my own boat sitting out in this water looking at this view. Awesome!-Sandee.

MY HAMMERED DULCIMER

MY HAMMERED DULCIMER
There are various Hammered Dulcimer postings from YouTube of different tunes, and NO I AM NOT PLAYING ANY OF THESE TUNES.Maybe some day when I have the equipment to do so.I have included a link to my You Tube Channel.I invite you to go and watch any of my videos on the site also check out some of the different channels I subscribe to.

ABOUT THE HAMMERED DULCIMER

The hammered dulcimer is an ancient trapezoidal musical instrument played by striking the strings with wooden hammers.

Originating in the Middle East about 2000 years ago, English soldiers brought the instrument back to England after their failed attempt to conquer Persia during the Crusades about 1000 years ago. Dulcimers have many names in many lands: santur in the Middle East, yang q'in in China, hackbrett in Austria, zither in Germany, and cymbalom in Hungary. The name "dulcimer" is derived from Latin, meaning "sweet sound". Hammered dulcimers were popular in England during the reign of James I, when the Bible was translated into English as the King James Bible. The dulcimer was mentioned in the Book of Daniel 3:5 among other instruments "..the sound of the cornet, flute, harp, sackbut, psaltery, dulcimer, and all kinds of music..." The dulcimer was later mechanized to become what we now know as the harpsichord which later evolved in the piano.

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A good thought

A good thought

The Officer Down Memorial

The Officer Down Memorial
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THE SERENITY PRAYER

THE SERENITY PRAYER
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; enjoying one moment at a time; accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; that I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him forever in the next. Amen. - Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)

WHEN I'M HAVING A BAD DAY.

WHEN I'M HAVING A BAD DAY.
WHEN EVERYTHING IS JUST TOO MUCH, I WILL BE HIDING, PLAYING MY GAMES AND STAYING IN MY OWN LITTLE WORLD.

HEY MIKEY,THIS MEANS YOU!!

IF IT IS NOT BROKEN DO NOT TRY TO FIX IT MIKEY, YOU GOOF! - SIGNED ME

Mike - Take the word DELETE out of your vocabulary. Big hug... Sandee

NATIONAL SUICIDE PROVENTION LIFELINE

With Help Comes Hope

Veterans Hotline & Online Chat
Are you a veteran in emotional distress? Please call 1-800-273-TALK and press 1 to be routed to the Veterans Suicide Prevention Hotline.
OR Veterans chat live with a counselor.


Are you in crisis? Please call 1-800-273-TALK
Are you feeling desperate, alone or hopeless? Call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), a free, 24-hour hotline available to anyone in suicidal crisis or emotional distress. Your call will be routed to the nearest crisis center to you.

I URGE ANYONE THAT NEEDS TO MAKE THIS CALL TO PLEASE DO SO.YOU ARE A PRECIOUS HUMAN BEING,YOU ARE SOMEONE'S LOVED ONE. GOD KNOWS WE ALL GO THROUGH A CRISIS AND NEED THE HELP.PLEASE CHOOSE LIFE!

I URGE ANYONE THAT NEEDS TO MAKE THIS CALL TO PLEASE DO SO.YOU ARE A PRECIOUS HUMAN BEING,YOU ARE SOMEONE'S LOVED ONE. GOD KNOWS WE ALL GO THROUGH A CRISIS AND NEED THE HELP. PLEASE CHOOSE LIFE.

THIS IS HERE TO REMIND ME AS WELL AS EVERYONE ELSE THAT LIFE IS IMPORTANT.

Blog Changes

Since I have decided to shut down Both Mike's Place and Loonytoon Central, Music Monday/Mondays Music Moves Me, Thursdays Tune, 5 On Friday, Feline Friday and the Google Doodles will now all be here.

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The Blogger's Prayer

Lord help me to learn to spell without spellcheck, manage to visit all that visit me, and post regularly - all in 5 minutes a day, so that I can clean house and take care of my family. Help me to not look at every occurrence in my life as a blog post, and to quit taking pictures of weird things to share as well. Please Lord, help me to stop talking about my blog friends as though they are next door neighbors or someone I have known all of my life. And help me dear Lord, to think of something witty and wise to post tomorrow.


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Monday, July 26, 2010

A GOOD reflection about today.

Let me introduce you to the elephant in the room, it has been a week since I tried to kill myself by overdosing on my psyche medications. One week ago today just about an hour from now, I took about 20 pills of Lamotrogine and 20 pills of Citropram. I almost died this time. I spent part of the day in the emergency room, then I spent the next 24 hours in the ICU. On Tuesday they transferred me to the CCU, on Wednesday they did a heart catheration on me wanting to see what kind of damage I did. Fortunately they did not find any blockages, they are not sure what kind of damage I did to my heart. That will take some more tests to determine. Needless to say I am grateful for surviving my attempt. I have been off ALL of my different medications that I have been taking and I am doing real good. Maybe the different cocktail of medications were contributing to some of the depression that led to my attempting to take my own life. BOTTOM LINE OF THIS POSTING IS THAT I AM GRATEFUL TO BE ALIVE, FEEL BLESSED TO SURVIVED MY ATTEMPT, AND ACCEPT FULL BLAME FOR MY STUPIDITY.

26 comments:

Wanda's Wings said...

I'm so glad you are alive too! I do understand the deep depression and am glad you are doing better.

Sandee said...

Depression is an awful thing Mike. I don't know what led you down the path you took, but I hope you and your doctors find out why. Don't be so hard on yourself either. Just saying.

Have a terrific day and I'm very grateful that you are still with us. Big hug to you both. :)

Just Be Real said...

Dear one I TOO AM GRATEFUL THAT YOU ARE ALIVE!! You are special Mike. ((((((((((Mike))))))))

Mike Golch said...

Wanda's Wings, The sadest thing is that my depression almost won.


Sandee,I do not know why I hve the problems that I do.I do not care why,I am glad that I am still alive.I know that I do not want to be one a mix of drugs ever again.I feel better since being off all those drugs.For all I know it is the combination of every thing that I was on causeing the deeper depression and the seizures.I feell alive now something that I have not felt in a long time.Knock on wood I have NOT had a seizure in several days since being off all those drugs as well..

Mari said...

Mike - I'm so glad it's a week later and you are okay. I'm happy there was no damage and better yet - you are doing well! Depression makes people do things that they otherwise wouldn't. We're just all grateful you got through it!

Syd said...

Mike, I didn't know that you had attempted to kill yourself. I am glad that you didn't succeed. Too many people have committed suicide lately and the consequences have been awful for all concerned. Stay strong and stay alive.

Ana said...

Mike,
Take good care and I'm sure that the meds you've been taking are part of your problems with depression.
I'm glad you are fine and is here.
Love,
Ana

Wanda's Wings said...

Just checking in on you to make sure you are OK!

Mike Golch said...

Mari,we still do not know if there is some kind of perminate damage.I wll know mor when I go for a repeat EKG again,if it still show some illregular heath beaths that there will be more tests done.

Syd,The sad thing is that I almost did not survive my attempt,I do not remember the Ems guys at my house,I do not remember the trip to the Hospital.All I remember was laying down on my couch in the living room and waking up in the hospital and not being able to speak properly.

Ana,Yes it was both the Depression,no impulse control and the meds running my life.I am greatful that God Said No,it is not your time.

Wanda's Wings,I am doing OK today,I am slowly improveing every day.

Michelle said...

I'm so glad you are OK. I'm so sorry you have been suffering so much. I'm sure there are many of us who understand how you feel and want to help when you are down next time. Please reach out to us. Praying for you :)

Mike Golch said...

Michelle,I promise I will do just that.

Stephany said...

I'm glad you are OK!

Take care of yourself,

Stephany

Mike Golch said...

Stephany,as well as a lot of my family members.

Stan said...

Glad to hear your hanging in there Mike. Take care of yourself now.

Radagast said...

Hey,

I just linked through here, from Stephany's blog. I'm not sure what to say, seeing as I don't know you. Erm, don't try to top yourself again, will you?.. It's such a lot of effort for so little reward!

Matt

PS I'm well-known, it seems for my leftfield observations and mindgames, apparently (it's just normal speech, to me), so you can ignore the above, or not, as you see fit!

Mike Golch said...

Stan,Thank you.

Mike Golch said...

Radagast(Matt),Thank you for stopping by,all comments are welcomed,with the exception of spam and or personal attacks.

CrystalChick said...

Thinking of you and hoping your recovery goes well.

Mike Golch said...

Crystal Chick,Thank you.

Have Myelin? said...

I'm glad you didn't succeed. I lost my daughter in June, 2009 and I can barely stand it.

The impact of loss is greatly felt, you know...

Glad you are ok.

Mike Golch said...

Have Myelin,I am sorry for your loss.If it was not for the fack that an automatic reflex action happened I might not have made it.while out my body strated to throw up on it own.I think that is was saved my from dying.I am so greatful for that.

Mary said...

Mike, so glad you are still here for me to visit. Get well soon. I've added you to my prayer list, my friend.

Blessings,
Mary

Mike Golch said...

Mary,Thank you for stopping by.I am so greatful that I am still here as well.

Borepatch said...

Mike, Here via Stephany's place. I hope you're OK both physically and spiritually.

Ferd said...

Oh, Mike, :-(
This really was a "bad day," as you put it! I am so sorry you were feeling that way, and am so happy that your attempt did not work. Hopefully they will indeed find a better treatment for the depression.
I must say you carry it well. You are so very connected to so many wonderful people, and you are clearly such a giving person. I don't usually see that in people who are depressed. Your accomplishments must come at great personal effort. I applaud you for that.
You're on my prayer list, man!
Peace!

Mike Golch said...

BorePatch,Thank you for stopping by,I'll be over to pay you a vist as well.

Ferd,For the most Part I do Ok most of the time.I have my Hammered Dulicmer music and of ther music I listen to I have My A.A. Big Book that helps me as well.The sad thing is that every onece in a while the Dark Side of me wins,as was the case of my Susicide attempt,Because of my dark side I can be supportive of others,It's the been there Done That kind of thing that enables me to relate to others that are suffering.

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