Cash For Clunkers

from what I can tell the cash for clunkers is a big joke.so you old car or truck get 18 miles per gal. you go to the dealership and can buy a new car or truck if it gets better milage than you old one.
That sounds great,but here is thr rub some people are getting away with buying a NEW CAR OR TRUCK THAT GET 2 MILES PER GAL.BETTER THAT THEIR OLD ONE!WTF? THE AUTO INDUSTRY IS JUST RIPPING OFF THE AMERICAN PUBLIC AGAIN.
This is the part that really pisses me off.when I bought my Buick Century the sticker mileage was 20 city. the effin epa now say that same car gets over 21 a gal there for I cannot qualify to buy a car that gets 32 miles per gal in the city.well up your congress and the effin auto industry!

I have given this some thought.

This post is about how I manage my blog. every blog on blogger has the ability of comment moderation and word verification. I for one cannot see why if I moderating the comments that are left for that I should make the commenter also jump through the hoop of word verification as well.I do not see the sense in that. The word verification is to prove that the commenter is a person not a computer program that just generates spam.
The reason I do not use the word verification is two fold. 1) if a person has a problem called dyslexia (transposing of letters) that word verification is a royal pain.I know I have that problem.That is why I am so glad that there is spell check for when I'm posting.
2) It would be redundant to use both methods of filtering out Spam.
THIS IS JUST MY OPINION AND HOW I CONTROL MY BLOG,I AM NOT TELLING ANYONE ELSE HOW TO RUN THEIR BLOG.

Please do not leave really nasty comments about this posting.THANK YOU.

Parts of me.( I am not a Saint) or it's the I ten T errors

I maybe sorry that I posted this one,but her it goes.
As I have been traveling the great land of Blog,I have been sharing different parts of my life.there still is a bunch of stuff about me that maybe or maybe I have not posted about much here on my own blog.

There is a reason that I started to post recovery blogs as a special part of my blog sidebar. I have discussed the alcholism of mine.I am also bi-polar,I have tried to commit susicide many times in the past,that monster still is with me I just try to keep that one on a short leash.

I have some problems that were caused by my time in the Air Force.The sad part is that the Military said that my problems were caused prior service.
the V.A. still maintains that to this very day.I have decided to just give up fighting with the "government" on this one. the government in their infinate wisdom has decided that any vetern that has drug abuse or alchol problem are their own doing and the service did not cause the problem.this is true to some point no one force me to drink nor to take the drugs( acid & speed and who know what else) that I took.I admit that this was a form of self medication that I did to cope with my military service.
I am not proud of this part of my history,but it is what it is.

Now for the really shameful part of my life I have had a violent temper and because of that it created for a verry stormy first marriage.
There was an other aspect of that train wreck,I was accused of cheating by my wife based on rumors that fellow wives were telling her. I never cheated on her.Unfortunaly while on a tempory duty assignment she cheated on me with of my best friend. i could have held that agaist her and filed for divorce.but I still wanted to make things work.I though when I got out of the Air Force that maybe we would have a chance of doing that.We both started Taking Classes at Sacramento City College.we both got our A.A. degrees.I tried to go to the 4 year collage to get my B.A. but due to my head being on backward I ended up on academic probation because of my grade.the following semester my grades did not meet the standards again and was placed on academic suspension.
The marriage was floundering we seperated.That is when my true mistress( the one that has always been in the backround) took over me ,and my drinking escalated.

I think that I will stop for now.maybe soon I will revisit this part of my past. Wow 2 long winded postins in one weeks time.

well back to the drawing board.

It looks like I cannot remember the names of the sites that I used for the quotes that I featured here. You Tube is being a pain in the neck about posting videos here.so I will just have to come up with other things to put here along with the prayer requests that I post.I want to keep my blog the lively one that it is.
Not to mention all the other stuff that I had stashed away in a folder while I was redoing my blog.That stuff is gone as well.I had a folder of all my awards and folders of other stuff that I wanted to keep,and that was wiped out by me as well.
speaking of a lively post.I have a rant hidden away where I blasted the media over the three ring circus that they create when a sports person,famous celeb,politician,dies or gets their butts in trouble.
I am not sure if I want to post that one or not.I do stomp on some toes with that one. I did post it,let the chips fall where they may.

I give up.

I just give up.I tried to follow everything step by step and still I screwed it up.I do not know if I was just missing something or the directions were missing a step.I just could not git it right.so therefore I will not be changing this blog to a three column blog.as much as I would like to.As some one said to me in their comment to me K.I.S.S.(keep it simple stupid)
There is one change that I still might attempt to make,and I will ask Sandee for that help.

Do I or Don't I??????

as the title inpliesis do I just have my own hosting such as rambling stuff.com and pay the so many bucks a year or save my money and continue to be frustrated by blogger/google???
The question is this which will frustrate me less??
This is whar blogger/google posted:Bloggers who rely on our FTP service to publish their blog to their own domain had a rough week last week. In fact, it's been a bumpy month or two. Let's start with the most important comment on this state of affairs: this sucks, and we're sorry.
Yeh well the way blogger is acting right sucks as well you bunch of bozos!So there!!!!

so if anybody has advice I would sure like to hear it.Thank you one and all.

It has been a while since...

It has been a while since I talked about my sobriety,my bipolar issues.So here goes nothing. I enjoy a good day of sobriety every day that I walk up and go to bed.when I wake up I thank God for allowing me a new day of life,I thank him before going to bed for the day sobriety,(soberity date:12/17/1990)and peacefulness.
My seizures have seemed to settle down some what for the time being.Thank you God for this.
I found a new site to visit.it has nothing to do with blogging,but it may turn out to be useful to people like me that are in therapy.the site is called Mood Gym it deals with C.B.T.( Cognitive Behavior Therapy.) I have just started on the site and will add a link to the site here later today.I do not have the link right next to me at the moment.
here is what my therepisy sent me:I just visited the site. It is a software program for the best psychotherapy for mood disorders! CBT is best and Interpersonal Therapy is also known to be good, but not as researched for mood disorders. Years ago in the 1980's when Metro(hospital)let us go to seminars I saw a Harvard prof do a session of Interpersonal Therapy. He was awesome. I have not progressed through the modules, but hope I can do some in times when I get no shows. THANKS!

I do not how or why

as the title suggests,some how for some reason the will to blog and read blogs is gone.This does not mean I'm quiting,it does mean that maybe I need to get my head together.
I had joined face book and that does not interest me as well.See every body when I feel better.
I'd just like sitting and playing my games too much I guess.or maybe I am going through some stuff.Either way I need to get my head back in the "game".

A post about a dark side of me.

this week with the death of Sissy Hula Girl's sister in law.Brings me to this post.I too have had thoughts of suicide in the past,my first attempt came when I was stationed on aTempory Duty Assignment(TDY those that have served in the military know these initials all too well.) in Tiawan.
I have made several attempts by using an overdose of the meds I have taken. I even tried to hang myself.Each time I have failed at these attempts.I am grateful for these failures.
After one such attempt I was placed in a psych ward by my doctor at the time where one of my sisters said to me "how can you do this to our Mother".I told her that my attempt was to kill the person I most hated,myself and it was a selfish act and at the time I had no reguard for may one's feelings.I told her that I did not need to be attacked this way and walked out of the visiting area back to my room.
Bottom line is that I am doing a lot better now,and like drinking I know that these thoughts will come back to me.It is how I address these thoughts that are important.I now have phone numbers to call 24/7 I will go to the emergency room for help as well. I love life and I have a lot more peace that I have had in the past. I also have all my friends that live in my computer that I can turn to as well.
Bottom line,if you are having problems Please for GOD'S sake reach out to someone,ask for help.you do not need to use a perminate solution for a tempory problem.I learned this Please do this for your self as well.
GOD lOVES YOU,AS DO YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS.

why me?

Just another fun day here at Golch Central.I had to "kill"(use the 6 restore discs) on my living room computer yesterday.I was having a cascade of failing components(if that is the right word).first I could not play any of my Cd's ,than I keep getting program not responding message every time I wanted to open a program,than the stupid machine decided that there was no keyboard attached to the computer.That was solved by unplugging the keyboard and replugging it back in.But the rest of the things I wanted to do I could not.I still do not understand why the computer can "forget"that the keyboard is attached.By this I mean that I could not type any thing into a comment like I was tryint to do
I still have to put stuff back into it,I was up until midnight trying to get it working.
Currently I'm using my older computer that still works.so maybe today I can get it working.I woke up at 6:30 AM I could not sleep so I decided to play a game,and do this posting.Soon if I am lucky I'll be tired enough to go back to sleep for a couple of hours that fight with the main computer again.I saved some stuff to a dvd disc that was I would not lose the folders that I wanted to keep.Hopefully I did that right.
I know that a "little rain must fall on our lives",but why do I need to be in "monsoon season" when it does???
Now that I got that off my chest I feel a little better.At least Me and the cat were the only ones at home when I let go all the nasty things I said to the computer for giving me the grief that it did.I even threaten to drop kick it into Lake Erie,but it just sat there "thumbing it's nose" at me.At least I got the last laugh,I fixed it,I think.Time will tell.
My one friend told me that he was having the same trouble with his MAC,I had called him to ask him if that had ever happened to him,so I guess that if there is going to be a failure it does not matter what kind you have.

a good day today.

Even if it is April fools day,and no I will not pull anything on this posting.
I can count my blessing that today is a good day.I'm glad that I shared some of the stuff that that runs Though my head,it shows a side of me that needed to be shared.
I shared this in response to several blogs that I visit where they talk about the stuff that happens to them.This way I can show them that they are not alone.
Abuse comes in many forms,physical and mental by some one we know. then there is substance abuse in the form of drugs and alcohol.these are "friends" that I know all too well.
than there is the category of self hatred,this takes many forms as well the worse one being suicidal,I have walked that path many times as well.The good part that I know that it is a pernate solution to a temporary problem.This does not mean that the thought will not be revisited,but I now have the tools to combat these thoughts.I promised my psych doc that i would call her and or go to the emergency room.
My point is that no one is perfect,and the last perfect person that walked this Earth was nailed to a cross to die for our sins,that we may be saved.

Just some babbling of my mind.(what I believe in)

as the title says,I'm just going to speak what is running around in my head.
I know that I do not talk a lot about my days as a drunk.those days were not pretty folks.and I do not care to do a drunkalog(those in A.A. know what I mean).I did that with my sponsor(s) a long time ago,actually as many times that I have been in and out of A.A.

I follow a group of bloggers.I do not discriminate on who I follow.I believe that we are ALL created by God. this being said he does not make mistakes.He has created us be be us.and He is the one to Judge us for the way we live.

I would like to think that everyone is accepting of each other.I believe that we should be.
This being said,I know that there is a great deal of prejudges in the world.The sad part is that it is not only based of skin color or religious preferences,but life style practices as well.

I believe that we do not have the right to say whom may live with whom,nor should we say who can marry and who cannot.
If you believe that we are all created by God and that he does not makes mistakes that everyone would be willing to accept each other as one.

Jumping onto my soapbox.

Well I guess it is time that I jump up on my soapbox,and stick both my feet in my mouth at the same time.

I was just reading some blogs that are condemning the increase funding for stem cell research.
the argument that that is killing just bugs the hell out of me. The research would use the embryo that are discarded.
Discarding embryos is a fancy way of saying that these embryos are going to be destroyed by throwing them out like yesterdays garbage!!!!

since some want to argue against using these for research is killing life,but disposing then unused is killing life also.
so why in the hell are these protesters not condemn the disposal of life as well.
give me a reason that one practice is OK and the other is not???? that sounds very hypocritical to me.
I WONDER HOW YOU WOULD FEEL IF YOU HAD A LIFE THREATENING MEDICAL CONDITION WOULD YOU STILL CONDEMN THE RESEARCH??
CASE IN POINT, A TYPE 1 DIABETIC(FORMERLY CALLED JUVENAL DIABETES.) I HAPPEN TO KNOW SOMEONE WHO HAS HAD THIS DISEASE FOR 40 YEARS AND HAS A BUNCH OF LIFE RESTRICTING COMPLICATIONS THAT GO WITH THE DISEASE.
Now that I have said my piece I'm departing the soap box. who's next?? Comments are welcome,lets get a dialog going.

doing what I need to do.

As of today I have just shut down 2 of my three blogs. my Rambling Thoughts on the word press and the Rambling Stuff Awards Addition on blogger. I can No longer do three blogs and will devote my time to this the original blog and visiting my fellow blogger.

On Addictions.

Folks I have come to the conclusion that I am a computer addict. I'm addicted to blogging and got addicted to things like Entre card and Twitter. Well to correct said addiction I have quite twitter.and will be leaving Entre card when the last advert is run. So there for i will just be content to reading blogs and writing my blog(s)

believe it or not.

I guess the complaint I had made to JS-Kit worked,they fixed the problem.I have just installed COMMENT LUV to this site.Hooray for me. I won one for a change.

Please take note.

On My side Bar I have added a follow widget. I have found the widget on a bunch of blogs so it is easy for me to follow them as well as following me.Most of the blogs that were dumped by me will be added back especially those that have the follow widget that Blogger had provided.
The blogs that do not get added back will be the ones where a posting has not been done lately.
I reserve the right not to comment if I cannot not think of something nice or Witty to say. I hope every one is haveing a Great day today!

internet explorer

Internet explorer now comes in explore 8 a beta version.I found it way too confusing to use so I switched back to explorer 7,as a back up browser.I use firefox as the main browser.

the Google Reader.

I have pretty much narrowed down the google reader to where it is manangable now. If I have to I will narrow it down somemore.

my google reader.

To all my blogging friends; it is with a heavy heart that I took the action that I did today. I have dumped my Google reader of the over 100 blogs that I have been following.

The heartache that I feel from reading all the blogs has become way too much.

Part of this is due to the mental wounds that I live with,some of it has to due with the depression that has hit me like a ton of bricks. Reading all of the 9/11 blogs has not helped. Not to mention the feelings of being overwhelmed when there are 95 Plus blogs to read every day.

In the coming weeks I will be adding a lot of you back onto the reader. Those that do not see me much I will visit you for I still have you on My BLOG ROLLS ON BOTH OF MY SITES HERE AND ON THE WORD PRESS SITE.

I am doing OK and do have my support network in place,so Please do not worry about me. I'm hanging in there. I just have to take a break.
To those that do not get added back into the reader I am sorry about that.I just can not handle all the blogs again.
I am going back to the place where I started in December 2007 that is when I wrote my first blog and will work from there to build my Google Reader. Thank you one and all for your understanding.
Big Time HUGS and GOD'S BLESSINGS and LOVE TO ALL OF YOU MY FRIENDS.

I would like to add that Sept. is a rough month for me. Sept 2003 is when I lost my Mother. just as August is a bad month as well that Is when I lost My Dad in 1984. even as the years pass by it does not lessen the pain of their loss that I feel.