some thing that I need to share

I have something that I need to share about me.It is a deep emotional scar that I have.it all stemmed from an incident.I alluded to it on Tracy's site in a comment I made.The problem is that I do not know how to talk about it with out the pain coming back to me.
It is in my nightmares. it is something that happened to me when my Dad flew off the handle before he got all the information.
Here goes nothing. one summer day we were out at my cousin's house,for a summer outing.Keith and I were playing with a balsa wood glider,throwing it back and forth to each outer.When a gust of wind propelled it to the top of the roof where it dangled partially on and partially over the edge of the roof.
I went into the garage and grabbed a strip of wood that you use between paneling that you put up on walls.I used that to knock the plane off the roof.what I did not count on that because it was so flexible.the strip curled backwards striking my sister in the mouth.She went running and crying into the house that I had hit her.Which I did technically.My Dad flew in to a rage and gave me a real bad beating including shoving me into the storm door that was closed in the breezeway.The glass broke cutting my arm slightly,than Dad pushed me into the car and screamed at me not to leave the car. Mean while my cousin was trying to tell every body that is was an accident,and how it happened.
My mom and Aunt came to the car and took me into the house to clean up my arm.fortunately it was just a couple of scrapes that were not too bad once they were cleaned up. needless to say the scene replays in my head every once and a while of being beaten and shoved into glass door until it opened and the glass broke and than being thrown into the red and white colored 1960 Oldsmobile super 88 4 door sedan,that was the family car at the time. I have felt ashamed that this happened to me,and did not share it with too many people until now.I have shared this with every Psych doctor that I have had ever since I was in the air force.

AWWW...MONDAY

the chain of love (it taks about 30 secs before the music starts)

an update and urgent prayer request.

My cousin Keith has been handed another thing to deal with.His daughter Heather,she first tried to use a knife from the kitchen to hurt herself and her brother took it away from her ,so then she went and got a razor blade and started cutting herself. All over the breakup of her boyfriend,she is in the hospital right now and will be most likly be admitted to the psych ward because of the depression and the cutting that she did. She has been admitted.

A good message.

74 wixy grad has a great video posted on his site.when I tried to post it here the audio was disabled on YouTube.So I urge you all to go and watch "the chain of love" on his site. This is just a different way of saying pay it forward.

a helpful tip

My blogging Friend Sandra over at family corner has a great tip on her blog the title of it is PSSSTTT...COME HERE.it is a good idea and it works.I tried it and it does.especially if you are useing google reader.

well what a surprise.

as the title says blogger now allows you to undelete a blog. So that means that the rambling stuff awards addition blog is active again.
Now if I could revive the word press blog that I deleted that would be something as well.

Whatever Happened to Randolph Scott

Friday Flashback part 2

The Royal Guardsmen-Snoopy Vs. the Red Baron

Flashback Friday Part #1

music snippets

what do you do when just a snippet of a song is running through your head? especially when you cannot remember the name of the song or even the artists???

some of the stuff running through mine are "sister married a man and lives in toledo"
"you got the music in you" there are others but these are the main ones stuck in my head now.
If any one knows the title and or artisits I could use the help.

Prayer Request.

one of my blogging friend Clinically Clueless's Father in law has lung cancer.Please pray for him and go offer morale support as well.thank you! I know first hand what that kind of news brings,I lost my Mom to lung cancer in 2003.

an update

as the title says I'm doing much better today.my cousin is making arrangements for his family and himself.he still needs prayers,for his family and especially for him.I worry about his ability to cope with what is going on.

Prayers needed

Valarie lea is asking for prayers for a baby.Please add him to your prayers.

prayers for a famly member.

with a sad and a heavy heart I have to ask for prayers for my cousin Keith and his family they are being evicted,the sad thing is I am not it a position to help them.I would if I could. So I am asking for prayers for them.
I have had a bad enough day today( alot of seizures) them to find this out,it is a little much to take. I am very depressed over this.it is times like these thatI feel like "crawling into a bottle" and not come out.So I guess I need prayers for him and me as well.

Prayers for my blog friends.

to all my blog friends,I received 2 emails and I am posting both of them.The first one come from Yertle and the second one comes from Karen Horton both these fine bloggers need our prayers.

I have another prayer request for my sister, her husband, and my niece Carly. Carly has been getting progressively worse lately, and either this week or next she will have a very long surgery (15 hours) to remove the rest of the tumor. More info is at her blog.

Thanks Mike. I really appreciate that you post prayer requests and help people in this way, especially at a time when I feel so helpless to be able to do something for them.this is from Yertle
The next comes from Karen.
.My Dear friends,
Sorry I haven't been blogging much, but hubby came home Friday afternoon and I had to take him to the sdoctor. He had hurt his back Wednesday night . they took X-rays and he just sprained it real bad. They gave him some anti-inflammatory pills, muscle relaxers, and paid meds to take for it. They told him not to lift anything heavy and just to lay around and take it easy. Today, I went to the Cardiologist and he is wanting to do a Heart Catheriazation tomorrow (25th) my Birhthday to see if there is any blockage. I am going in in the morning at 6:00a.m.CST as an outpatient and I may have to spend the night, just dependint on what the test shows tomorrow. I ask that you all please be in prayer for me as I have this procedure done. i AM very nervous a bout having it done. Just pray that the outcome is good. If not, I may have to hav stints put in he said. I would really appreciate your prayers very much. Me and hubb y won't be going to Branson, MO, now since I am h having this donebut the girls are still going with my parents and Sister. Remember them in your prayers also for safe traveling there on Thursday and on the way home sunday. I will be away from the computer for a few days and just as soon as I am able, I will let everyone know how things went. I hope everyone has a great rest of the week and may GOD Bless each and everyone of you.
Lets keep these family in our prayers as well as go to the sites and offer some morale support.Thank you one and all.Mike G.said that!

bummer.

when I started being a realitor after my first sale I treated my selve to repairs to my teeth.bonding was done to give me a better smile.while eating dinner today a chunk of the bonding broke off and I almost swallowed it.I mananged to spit the broken off piece out but man does the blank space feels realy wierd and depressing.
A post script.if I did not have the seizures I could be seen tomarrow and have this fixed.since most dentists do not want to deal with me I have to go to metro hospitals dental clinic and so I have to wait until next week. at the eairlest.

Prayer request.

My blogging friend Valarie Lea has a prayer request and a link to the site for a little baby that needs our prayers.

Do as He's doing

Hammered Dulcimer - Train of Thought

Instead of AWWW...Monday. i putting up some Hammered Dulcimer music that soothes me and lifts my spitirts.

Aww monday.

I really do not have any thing for today.espicially after what has happend this weekend. Even my diet has gone to hell this weekend.

Prayer Request.

I would ask that the family of the victims of the plane crashes be kept in your prayers.I the crashes I'm referring to happen in Montana(17 people including children) and Japan(pilot and co pilot).This saddens me to no end.

Prayer Request.

I hope that every one keeps these officers and their departmant and all the families in their prayers.
Authorities said a man pulled over for a traffic stop shot and killed three police officers in Oakland, Calif., on Saturday. Police reversed an earlier announcement that a fourth officer died Sunday, but said that officer, John Hege, 41, was brain dead. The officers who were shot are Sgt. Mark Dunakin, 40, Hege, Sgt. Daniel Sakai, 35, and Sgt. Ervin Romans, 43.

something new.

I have added something new to my site.It is about the Hammered Dulcimer origins.I placed it right below the picture of my Hammered dulcimer.

Hammered Dulcimer - Sea Side Run

The newest award.

Shinade has given me this award and here is what she said about me:Mike at Rambling Stuff who bends over backwards to do anything possible for just about everyone he knows. He is absolutely one of the kindest and sweetest man I have come to know through blogging.

my latests award.

As you can see I just recieved this award form the compasionate bloggers site.Thank you Mother Maitri. Come over for a visit,there are a lot of good folks over there.
Mother Matri wrote a nice thing about me and it warms my heart to read what she said about me.

Buggles - Video killed the radio star 1979

Friday Flashback pt 2

Oh What A Beautiful Morning!

Friday Flashback pt 1

The Passionate Blogger Award

I just got this award from Sandee,and I thank you for it here is a list of Her recipients

Lisa of "...All Things Work for Good..."
Annie of A Nice Place in the Sun
Megan of Amid Clutter
Clara of Coming Back to Life!
Diane of Good Mourning, Glory

Virginia (Storyteller) of Happily Retired Gal , Small Reflections, Sacred Ruminations or Blog Rolls, Bling and Blurbs
Ana of Hella Heaven
Grace of Hugz Before You Go
Rhonda of Led Beside Still Waters
Colleen of Short Stories in the Making

Roger of Idaho Photo
Mike of Rambling Stuff
Speedcat of Speedcat Hollydale Page, 0007 Undercover, Doctor Shoal, Hollydale Golf Notes, The Phepping Foundation, I am Grampa, Golfing Cat

Participation is not mandatory, so don't feel that you have to play along.

I am pleased to be included in this list of fine blogggers by Sandee,So passing it on will begin soon.I'll be comming to the recievers blog to notify them as well as list here on my blog.

The first one goes to Cliff over at wixy's gone bananas.

Anni over at hootin--anni's

Mary over at mary's writing nook

Sandee over at comedy plus (wordpress site)

Awake over at awake in rochester

Storyteller over at happily retired gal

'Tart over at jungle tarts good stuff ,and adventures of a jungle tart

Airman Mom get this as well.

Prayer request.

My Blogging friend Tracy's son needs out prayers.here is an excerpt from her email to me: my youngest son started having episodes of passing out, and having seizures. He actually had another one last night. My husband and i took him to the hospital. The doctors confirmed he is having seizures.
I guess that one reason she has not posted something in a while.Can every one add her son to our prayer lists,Please.

Raw Video: Green Fountains at The White House

An old idea renewed,maybe.

Air Force Planning Giant Spy Airship

March 13, 2009

Chicago Tribune

WASHINGTON - The next Air Force spy craft is likely to be a giant, unmanned dirigible that can remain aloft at high altitudes, keeping an unblinking watch on vehicles, planes and even people.

The dirigible is the brainchild of the U.S. Air Force and the Pentagon's research arm, which together will spend $400 million to develop a prototype that could pave the way for a fleet of spy airships, military officials said Thursday.

The plans represent the final stage of work to develop a giant airborne radar system capable of providing ground operators with intricate detail over vast expanses, even if the dirigible is hundreds of miles from its target.

The project reflects a recent shift in Pentagon planning and spending priorities under Defense Secretary Robert Gates, who has urged the military services to improve intelligence and surveillance operations, while cutting high-tech weaponry costs.

However, it marks the return to a form of flight that has stirred anxiety and doubt since the deadly 1937 disaster involving the Hindenburg. In Iraq, the military has used less-sophisticated tethered blimps called aerostats to conduct surveillance around military bases.

Unlike other surveillance platforms, the proposed airship will stay aloft for 10 years and provide a constant watch over an area, Air Force officials said.

"It is absolutely revolutionary," said Werner Dahm, chief scientist for the Air Force. "It is a cross between a satellite and a Global Hawk (spy plane)."

The airship will fly at 65,000 feet, or 12 miles, beyond the range of any handheld missile, and safe from most fighter planes.

At that height, it would be nearly impossible to see. But the dirigible could be vulnerable to some surface-to-air missiles, and would be unable to maneuver out of the way. Nonetheless, the airship's range will allow it to operate at distant edges of any military theater, likely out of the range of many missiles.

The airship would provide the military a much better understanding of an adversary's movements, habits and tactics, officials said. The ability to constantly monitor small movements in a wide area - like the Afghanistan-Pakistan border, for example - will dramatically improve military intelligence, officials said.

"It is constant surveillance, uninterrupted," Dahm said. "To be able to observe over a long period of time, you get a much better understanding of how an adversary operates. When you only have a short-time view - whether it is a few hours or a few days - that is not enough to put the picture together."

The dirigible will be filled with helium and powered by an innovative system that uses solar panels to recharge hydrogen fuel cells. Military officials said those underlying technologies, including a very light hull and low power transmitters, were critical to making the project work.

"The things we had to do here were not trivial, they were revolutionary," said Jan Walker, a spokeswoman for the Defense Advanced Research Projects Agency.

The final version of the airship will be about 450 feet long. However, the prototype will be only a third of that size. The craft is known to military planners as ISIS, or Integrated Sensor Is the Structure, referring to the radar system built into the structure of the craft.

The ISIS has a hull made of a lightweight, thick skin. Zeppelins - like the Hindenburg - have a rigid external structure. Blimps are not rigid, and are given their shape from the pressure of the helium gas. According to military, the ISIS is closer to a blimp than a zeppelin, but officials most frequently call it an airship. "Airship," like "dirigible," is a broader term.

The Air Force has signed an agreement to develop a demonstration dirigible along with the defense research agency. Due to be finished by 2014, the Air Force will begin to use the prototype after an initial three-month testing period. The military has not yet designated a contractor. The Air Force's intelligence, surveillance and reconnaissance - or ISR - abilities have improved dramatically in the last five years with the expanded use of Predators and other drones. Although Air Force drones can linger over an area for a long time, they do not watch constantly.

The radar system is what gives the new airship its value to military planners.

"Being able to observe threats with a very large radar in the sky we have the ability to see things much better," Dahm said. "Being able to watch those things, understand what is happening, is really the game-changing piece here."

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Mary,thank you.I'm sorry that I was slow at posting this one.

An up date from Silly Willy and Fluffy. (Prayers do work)

I recieved this from Silly Willy and Flufy in an Email:We thank you so much for all your prayers and your
prayer group. Ginny continues to make progress in her rehabilitation but it will take a lot of
work on her part. She has worked harder than she ever has in her life. The Acute Rehab Team was amazed at her progress. The power of prayer and God's Grace has touched her and continues to bring her forward. She returned home to her family and is scheduled for Out Patient Rehabilitation. She will continue to need everyones prayers and strength to help
her progress.

With this being said,I hope that every one is keeping their daughter in their prayers

Songs of Praise: Gaelic Blessing

I hope you enjoy this one.

Traditional Irish Blessing

being Part Irish,I had to put this up aftter seeing it on Mari's site.

awww...monday

Just some babbling of my mind.(what I believe in)

as the title says,I'm just going to speak what is running around in my head.
I know that I do not talk a lot about my days as a drunk.those days were not pretty folks.and I do not care to do a drunkalog(those in A.A. know what I mean).I did that with my sponsor(s) a long time ago,actually as many times that I have been in and out of A.A.

I follow a group of bloggers.I do not discriminate on who I follow.I believe that we are ALL created by God. this being said he does not make mistakes.He has created us be be us.and He is the one to Judge us for the way we live.

I would like to think that everyone is accepting of each other.I believe that we should be.
This being said,I know that there is a great deal of prejudges in the world.The sad part is that it is not only based of skin color or religious preferences,but life style practices as well.

I believe that we do not have the right to say whom may live with whom,nor should we say who can marry and who cannot.
If you believe that we are all created by God and that he does not makes mistakes that everyone would be willing to accept each other as one.

OKIE FROM MUSKOGEE for friday flashback.

with a nod to country western music.

BLOGGER/GOOGLE

GOOGLE/BLOGGER DAMN YOU TO ELL AND BACK.I CANNOT EVEN GET INTO MY OWN SITE.I CAN POST A ENTRY,I CAN APPROVE COMMENTS BUT TRY TO ACCESS MY OWN BLOG SO I CAN ASNWER YOUR COMMENTS AND NO EFFING GO.DARN YOU EGGHEADS TO NOT END!!!!!!

A great post read.

I just read a great post on Ana's site.Please go and read about the "You are Beautiful" campaign.

I have a second great post to read,it is over on Sandee's site.it is about the rainbow bridge.

Jumping onto my soapbox.

Well I guess it is time that I jump up on my soapbox,and stick both my feet in my mouth at the same time.

I was just reading some blogs that are condemning the increase funding for stem cell research.
the argument that that is killing just bugs the hell out of me. The research would use the embryo that are discarded.
Discarding embryos is a fancy way of saying that these embryos are going to be destroyed by throwing them out like yesterdays garbage!!!!

since some want to argue against using these for research is killing life,but disposing then unused is killing life also.
so why in the hell are these protesters not condemn the disposal of life as well.
give me a reason that one practice is OK and the other is not???? that sounds very hypocritical to me.
I WONDER HOW YOU WOULD FEEL IF YOU HAD A LIFE THREATENING MEDICAL CONDITION WOULD YOU STILL CONDEMN THE RESEARCH??
CASE IN POINT, A TYPE 1 DIABETIC(FORMERLY CALLED JUVENAL DIABETES.) I HAPPEN TO KNOW SOMEONE WHO HAS HAD THIS DISEASE FOR 40 YEARS AND HAS A BUNCH OF LIFE RESTRICTING COMPLICATIONS THAT GO WITH THE DISEASE.
Now that I have said my piece I'm departing the soap box. who's next?? Comments are welcome,lets get a dialog going.

Validation

I had this up once before,and decided to post it a gain.for the simple we all need validation.

Here is Mine to you:I'm Glad that you are visiting with me today,your are great.

M know what I Meme

I saw this over on Jennifer's site and decided to play along.
1. What is your name?: Michael
2. A 4 letter word: Mike (as in a Microphone)
3. A boy's name: Mark
4. A girl's name: Michele
5. An occupation: Mail Man
6. A color: Mauve
7. Something you wear: Medalion
8. A Food: Meat
9. Something found in the bathroom: Mirror
10. A place: Macedonia
11. A reason for being late: Mike
12. Something you shout:Move
13. A movie title: Miracle on 34th street
14. Something you drink: Milkshake
15. An animal: Monkee
16. A song title: My Sweet Lord
17. A verb: Mess

I am not going to tag anyone,but if you would like to play along let me know so I can come as see your answers..

If the shoe fits.....

Rock and Roll Hall of Fame + Museum

thoughts.

first though,I will not delete this blog and will still use it.I will be doing some posting on the word press blog as well.

Second thing,I have cut down the number of posts to ten instead of 10 days worth of posting.this way people that are useing older computers will not have problems with loading the blog when they open my site.(I hope)

third thing,I feel greatful for all my blog friends.

in the glutton for punishment catagory:

I know why I went and did it.I guess it was a knee jerk reaction the the frustration I was feeling with blogger,I do have a wordpress blog again.Call me crazy and I guess you would be right.

friday and saturday update.

here is an update. Yesterday I posted Andy Kaufman singing to Mighty Mouse that will not play.Sorry about that. Now on a personal note: While Celestine was out and about doing some errands.our car failed to start,AAA and her Sister were called and instead of towing our car as she requested the driver said that he could get the car started and so that is what he did.so the car was brought home.Then today the did not start so we again called AAA this time the car was towed as requested.A new battery was installed and the charging system was checked.it turns out that the battery just failed.The company we bought the battery from pro-rated it and replaced the battery.
Now all is right in the Golch household,well sort of.

Prayer request.

Beliefs aside,I have a blogger asking for prayers for a friend of hers.Please pray for KC he was in a bad accident and is paralized and needs out prayers.

Andy Kaufman - Mighty Mouse

Flashback Friday Part 2

The Who - Behind Blue Eyes

Flashback Friday.

A Silly posting!

as the title says: "Here I come to make your day--- that means that SILLY SPOUSE is on the way" SUNG to the Mighty Mouse theme song. It's been a while since I did a really silly posting.

Friends day.

St Patrick Day.

I wish to thank Hootin Anni for this gift.

Aww..Monday

this time for aww...monday there will not be a photo,just a statement. I have started a diet and I have lost 6lbs.It does not sound like much,but considering I wa over 300 lbs when I started it is a start! I am down to a happly 296.my ulitmate goal is to end up at 250lbs.I will be posting off and on my weight loss.

my latest award.

My latest award comes to me from Mari I thank you for this I now award it to every Blogger that I visit,simply because you bring light to my live,I am eternally greatful.

A prayer request.

I was just visiting a fellow blogger named Karen, has some health setbacks,and I am asking for prayers her and her family.Just follow the link and leave a kind word.

Thoughts

I'm posting some thoughts for today.
First of all I wish to ask for PRAYERS for the late PAUL HARVEY who went home to God yesterday,and for his family.

Now for a HAPPY THOUGHT. Today is Celestine's and I 29th Annaversary. and in a few day it will be my youngest sister LINDA and her husband ROD'S 30th annaversary.
Our Middle sister Sandy and her Husband Al will be celebrating their 28th later this year as well Congrats to both my sisters and my Brother-in-laws.I love you all.